This has been the grade I consistently get for my CA essays for this sem. At least for Essay #1 of each module. I know I shouldn't be complaining. There are people who worked as hard as I did yet did not even get to smell a B (No I'm not trying to be sarcastic here. It was a heartfelt sorry). Consistency is kind of good when it comes to a grade that begins with a B, because it could have been worse and my tutors were kind enough to grace me with an acceptable grade. I certainly do not hope to fall my consistent grade, but everytime I hand in my essays, I actually tingle with hope that I would get a better than current grade kind of grade. Unlike most of my peers, when I hand in an essay, I don't usually hand in with an expectation or approximation to what grade I'd get. I am the type who hands in my paper with quickened heartbeat and hope for the Bestest of the best grade that I can possibly get.
I do know for a fact that I am not one of the most outstanding History student around (or even anywhere near that), and I do know for sure that everytime I hand in one of those papers, I could have done better, but sometimes I think I have already done them to the best of my ability in the given period of time and I really do not know how to improve. Being a purely science student for the past god knows how many years of my life didn't help with my essay writing or argument constructing skills.
Nor that I have an average of 2 essays/tests to hand in per week for the past 5 weeks. I remembered that the last time I got an A something for a CA assignment was in my 3rd semester of being in NUS. If only I could remotely smell that A something again...even if it's a A-- ie something worse than an A-, but better than a B+, but there's not such thing. Hurhurhur...
As the exam draws nearer, and more deadlines of the assignments #2 & #3 breathe down my neck, I almost stop modelling anymore. Travelling all the way down town for a clothes fitting seemed like too much an effort for me these days, and I hardly even go home during weekends these days. I just wanna sleep, and maybe I'll dream of my As when Xiaobai is working his silly little dog magic on me. *yawnz* back to writing about the bloody Vietnam War $#@*&%^!!!!!
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
Day of Rose and Caffeine overdose
Caffeine always wrecks havoc on my system.
I don't know why, but I was exceptionally tired today, and yet today's lessons were all too important to fall asleep in class. Usually, I don't even sneak a 5 min nap during lessons, but when I do, I really sleep. Once I fall asleep, I can hardly wake up again, until the class is over. ANd when I sleep, I can dream or have nightmares.
There was once I dreamt of someone tickling me when I was taking a nap in the central library and I burst out laughing, waking up almost immediately thereafter. Luckily it wasn't a "mugging in the library" period, so there was no one around me.
There was this other time when I fell asleep during one lecture a few semesters back. I not only had chicken scribes wrtitten all over my notes, I even babbled in my sleep and I was sitting with my friends. But I think I wasn't very loud, so only one friend heard it and nudged me waking me up. But the point is I don't like to fall asleep in class. Especially not today when Prof Farrell is going to talk about the US intervention decision to KPO in the Vietname war in the 1960s, cos I'm doing my research essay on that. I was already falling asleep towards the end of the class before it.
So what I did was I bought one can of cold Nescafe before Farrell's class. Usually a bit of caffeine would go a long way, but I had lunch just before the lesson, so I supposed I needed double my usual dosage, or the caffeine needed longer to work. But towards the first half of the lesson, my concentration started to waned and my eyelids were threatening to fall. So during the break I got myself a cup of hot, BLACK coffee, and gulp down half a cup before lesson began. The effect was amazing. I didnt feel sleepy, but gradually the horrible effects of caffeine kicked in. My heart-beat quickened, and I started to get restless and jittery. I started shuffling my feet and drum of my fingers took control, of which I had to consciously stop myself from doing so. Then I started writing very fast(which was not neccessarily a bad thing), but my wrists hurt from it. And worse, I was slightly hypervantilating. Luckily no one tried to talk to me, or I'd start talking very fast, and nobody will understand what I'm speaking.
After class, I went to the library to photocopy some materials that I could use for my research essay, and went I was photocopying, I was kind of excited by the bright light of the photocopier that I started breathing rather deeply. It didn't help that I was standing. I felt plain awful. The guy beside me at the photocopier kept looking at me; either thinking that I am excited by photocoping a dumb book; or I was going to get an asthma attack. But either way I was so embarrassed that I chose a copier with no one around.
Trying to make myself better, I told myself I could take a walk around the bazzaar at the central forum before heading back, and perhaps I could get something pretty for my mom's brithday this coming SUnday.
I got 3 pairs of handmade rose earrings. One scarlet, one deep plum, and one white with a light lavender tinge at the center.
Shopping is therapeutic; so is blogging.
I don't know why, but I was exceptionally tired today, and yet today's lessons were all too important to fall asleep in class. Usually, I don't even sneak a 5 min nap during lessons, but when I do, I really sleep. Once I fall asleep, I can hardly wake up again, until the class is over. ANd when I sleep, I can dream or have nightmares.
There was once I dreamt of someone tickling me when I was taking a nap in the central library and I burst out laughing, waking up almost immediately thereafter. Luckily it wasn't a "mugging in the library" period, so there was no one around me.
There was this other time when I fell asleep during one lecture a few semesters back. I not only had chicken scribes wrtitten all over my notes, I even babbled in my sleep and I was sitting with my friends. But I think I wasn't very loud, so only one friend heard it and nudged me waking me up. But the point is I don't like to fall asleep in class. Especially not today when Prof Farrell is going to talk about the US intervention decision to KPO in the Vietname war in the 1960s, cos I'm doing my research essay on that. I was already falling asleep towards the end of the class before it.
So what I did was I bought one can of cold Nescafe before Farrell's class. Usually a bit of caffeine would go a long way, but I had lunch just before the lesson, so I supposed I needed double my usual dosage, or the caffeine needed longer to work. But towards the first half of the lesson, my concentration started to waned and my eyelids were threatening to fall. So during the break I got myself a cup of hot, BLACK coffee, and gulp down half a cup before lesson began. The effect was amazing. I didnt feel sleepy, but gradually the horrible effects of caffeine kicked in. My heart-beat quickened, and I started to get restless and jittery. I started shuffling my feet and drum of my fingers took control, of which I had to consciously stop myself from doing so. Then I started writing very fast(which was not neccessarily a bad thing), but my wrists hurt from it. And worse, I was slightly hypervantilating. Luckily no one tried to talk to me, or I'd start talking very fast, and nobody will understand what I'm speaking.
After class, I went to the library to photocopy some materials that I could use for my research essay, and went I was photocopying, I was kind of excited by the bright light of the photocopier that I started breathing rather deeply. It didn't help that I was standing. I felt plain awful. The guy beside me at the photocopier kept looking at me; either thinking that I am excited by photocoping a dumb book; or I was going to get an asthma attack. But either way I was so embarrassed that I chose a copier with no one around.
Trying to make myself better, I told myself I could take a walk around the bazzaar at the central forum before heading back, and perhaps I could get something pretty for my mom's brithday this coming SUnday.
I got 3 pairs of handmade rose earrings. One scarlet, one deep plum, and one white with a light lavender tinge at the center.
Shopping is therapeutic; so is blogging.
Saturday, September 30, 2006
100% Red Delicious
I was reading the magazines that xiaobai gave me as birthday presents. I came across their freebies section and decided to participate in some that I thought my chances would be reasonably high. I came across the DKNY Red Delicious Fragrance Launch.
damn...ain't she hot...
One of the highlights was to wear red on the day of the event launch at TANGS and get a free vial of the new perfume. The other was to bring a male partner and participate in an hourly game, from which the winner would walk away with a $168 DKNY voucher. I was definitely going for the big one since me and ZY were both relatively free that day.
We arrived at Tangs just slightly over 6 ( the promotion ends at 7) and there was an event booth stationed just at the entrance of Tangs, where Steven Lim is at usually. Oh btw, beware, because he seemed to have extended his territory to Lucky Plaza. Which reminds me, a male model from my agency reminds me of him. But I shall not digress. Anyway, as I approached the booth, I fished out the voucher cut out and seeing that I was wearing red, the sales promoters gave me a vial of the newly launched. BLoody hell...maybe it's because I'm super cheapo, but the vial is really a vial. I mean it was so tiny that I think I would finish it in like 2 sprays. So I was determined to play the game. From the promoter, we knew that the hourly event would start in approximately 15 minutes, so we lurked around the area near the booth for the whole 15 minutes. When the Deejays started talking, I dragged ZY and planted ourselves right in front of the stage, in clear view of the Deejays so that they wouldn't miss us even if they were terribly myopic.
The game kicked off with 2 couples on the grandstand, us and this other Malay couple. The Emcee would spritz the new fragrance onto one memeber in each team and the other member was supposed to point out where the perfume went to. I requested that ZY be the one to be smelt out because I had went around perfume testing before the game and had all sorts of fragrances all over me. Me and the girl from the the other team got blindfolded. Perhaps my unsually big head helped me because it stretched the blindfold cloth until it allowed some light to come through and I could vaguely make out where on ZY did they spritz the perfume on. Once somewhere on the left and once somewhere on the right. And they did not go too low. Once they said go, I pretend to fell around to find out where ZY was when I could actually see his outline right in front of me. Just as I was doing that, ZY pressed his left wrist onto me. It was still wet and I immediately went down to the level of his wrist and took a whiff~ There it was. And then to the next spot. That was a bit trickier. I thought it was somewhere on the right, somewhere from his armpit level to his waist, so I went up and down that area but I couldn't smell anything. Just then, the MCs announced that the 2nd couple had just found the first spot. Getting nervous, I made some "clue please" noise to ZY hoping somehow he'd understand me through telepathy. Responding to my noises, he made some noises that sounded like "higher", so I went higher, and there it was, the fragrance was lingering at the nape of his neck. Yay~ We won the $168 DKNY hamper!!!
The MCs presented us with a red, DKNY hamper, and the other team a whitish looking bag. *Chey* Heeh I like to win prizes...
DKNY Red Delicious Women
DKNY introduces a second bite of temptation with a new, limited-edition scent. Aptly named DKNY Red Delicious, this sexy fragrance is a bit more daring, a bit more tantalizing - completely irresistible.
A glittering champagne accord shimmers with exotic lychee, while red raspberry flirtatiously mingles with crisp apple. The heart intensifies with rich, velvety rose combined with lush notes of drenched violet petals, evolving to a rich, sensual blend of vanilla bean crushed with warm patchouli and a luminous amber note. Capping off the sultry experience, a sensual skin accord mixes with raspberry for a soft kiss of sweetness.
Notes:
Champagne Accord, Lychee, Red Raspberry, Apple, Rose, Vanilla Bean, Patchouli, Amber, Sensual Skin Accord, Raspberry.
Style:
Tempting. Sexy. Delicious.
Red Delicious Men
DKNY introduces a second bite of temptation with a new, limited-edition scent. Aptly named DKNY Red Delicious, this sexy fragrance is a bit more daring, a bit more tantalizing - completely irresistible.
A dark and spicy impression from cognac, rum, saffron flower, and cardamom combine with sparkling citrus nuances of bergamot and mandarin flower. A provocative cocktail mixed with Coffee Absolute Africa, apple juice liqueur, and a splash of vanilla vodka makes for the perfect energy boost. The masculine, edged, floral bouquet of Davana flower and tiger orchid gets a cool vibe from airy ozone, while sandalwood, okoume wood, moss, patchouli, and iris keep the sexy energy going into the night.
Notes:
Cognac, Rum, Saffron Flower, Cardamom, Bergamot, Mandarin Flower, Coffee Absolute Africa, Juice Apple Liqueur, Vanilla Vodka, Davana Flower, Tiger Orchid, Airy Ozone, Sandalwood, Okoume Wood, Moss, Patchouli, Iris.
Style:
Provocative. Sensual. Irresistible.
damn...ain't she hot...
One of the highlights was to wear red on the day of the event launch at TANGS and get a free vial of the new perfume. The other was to bring a male partner and participate in an hourly game, from which the winner would walk away with a $168 DKNY voucher. I was definitely going for the big one since me and ZY were both relatively free that day.
We arrived at Tangs just slightly over 6 ( the promotion ends at 7) and there was an event booth stationed just at the entrance of Tangs, where Steven Lim is at usually. Oh btw, beware, because he seemed to have extended his territory to Lucky Plaza. Which reminds me, a male model from my agency reminds me of him. But I shall not digress. Anyway, as I approached the booth, I fished out the voucher cut out and seeing that I was wearing red, the sales promoters gave me a vial of the newly launched. BLoody hell...maybe it's because I'm super cheapo, but the vial is really a vial. I mean it was so tiny that I think I would finish it in like 2 sprays. So I was determined to play the game. From the promoter, we knew that the hourly event would start in approximately 15 minutes, so we lurked around the area near the booth for the whole 15 minutes. When the Deejays started talking, I dragged ZY and planted ourselves right in front of the stage, in clear view of the Deejays so that they wouldn't miss us even if they were terribly myopic.
The game kicked off with 2 couples on the grandstand, us and this other Malay couple. The Emcee would spritz the new fragrance onto one memeber in each team and the other member was supposed to point out where the perfume went to. I requested that ZY be the one to be smelt out because I had went around perfume testing before the game and had all sorts of fragrances all over me. Me and the girl from the the other team got blindfolded. Perhaps my unsually big head helped me because it stretched the blindfold cloth until it allowed some light to come through and I could vaguely make out where on ZY did they spritz the perfume on. Once somewhere on the left and once somewhere on the right. And they did not go too low. Once they said go, I pretend to fell around to find out where ZY was when I could actually see his outline right in front of me. Just as I was doing that, ZY pressed his left wrist onto me. It was still wet and I immediately went down to the level of his wrist and took a whiff~ There it was. And then to the next spot. That was a bit trickier. I thought it was somewhere on the right, somewhere from his armpit level to his waist, so I went up and down that area but I couldn't smell anything. Just then, the MCs announced that the 2nd couple had just found the first spot. Getting nervous, I made some "clue please" noise to ZY hoping somehow he'd understand me through telepathy. Responding to my noises, he made some noises that sounded like "higher", so I went higher, and there it was, the fragrance was lingering at the nape of his neck. Yay~ We won the $168 DKNY hamper!!!
The MCs presented us with a red, DKNY hamper, and the other team a whitish looking bag. *Chey* Heeh I like to win prizes...
DKNY Red Delicious Women
DKNY introduces a second bite of temptation with a new, limited-edition scent. Aptly named DKNY Red Delicious, this sexy fragrance is a bit more daring, a bit more tantalizing - completely irresistible.
A glittering champagne accord shimmers with exotic lychee, while red raspberry flirtatiously mingles with crisp apple. The heart intensifies with rich, velvety rose combined with lush notes of drenched violet petals, evolving to a rich, sensual blend of vanilla bean crushed with warm patchouli and a luminous amber note. Capping off the sultry experience, a sensual skin accord mixes with raspberry for a soft kiss of sweetness.
Notes:
Champagne Accord, Lychee, Red Raspberry, Apple, Rose, Vanilla Bean, Patchouli, Amber, Sensual Skin Accord, Raspberry.
Style:
Tempting. Sexy. Delicious.
Red Delicious Men
DKNY introduces a second bite of temptation with a new, limited-edition scent. Aptly named DKNY Red Delicious, this sexy fragrance is a bit more daring, a bit more tantalizing - completely irresistible.
A dark and spicy impression from cognac, rum, saffron flower, and cardamom combine with sparkling citrus nuances of bergamot and mandarin flower. A provocative cocktail mixed with Coffee Absolute Africa, apple juice liqueur, and a splash of vanilla vodka makes for the perfect energy boost. The masculine, edged, floral bouquet of Davana flower and tiger orchid gets a cool vibe from airy ozone, while sandalwood, okoume wood, moss, patchouli, and iris keep the sexy energy going into the night.
Notes:
Cognac, Rum, Saffron Flower, Cardamom, Bergamot, Mandarin Flower, Coffee Absolute Africa, Juice Apple Liqueur, Vanilla Vodka, Davana Flower, Tiger Orchid, Airy Ozone, Sandalwood, Okoume Wood, Moss, Patchouli, Iris.
Style:
Provocative. Sensual. Irresistible.
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
Joke of the Day...Engineers! *tsk tsk tsk*
DUring tutorial for History of military thoughts today, my lecturer from Australia told a very funny joke to demonstrate the point on how engineers are not the smartest people around. Well at least I thought it were hilarious. My kind of joke, and sorry to those engineers out there reading this...I'm not apologetic. Heeh
When a lecturer says "Good Morning" to a class from Arts, the students will reply by nodding their head.
When a lecturer says "Good Morning" to a class from Science, the students will echo back the same words.
When a lecturer says "Good Morning" to a class from Engineering....they'll write it down.
When a lecturer says "Good Morning" to a class from Arts, the students will reply by nodding their head.
When a lecturer says "Good Morning" to a class from Science, the students will echo back the same words.
When a lecturer says "Good Morning" to a class from Engineering....they'll write it down.
Sunday, September 17, 2006
I don't like IMF
IMF IMF IMF...what the big fuck is that?
They created so much inconvenience for everyone because the whole Singapore is so worried that terrorist will attack the meetings. And because I am involved in entertaining the delegates, I find the whole thing very stupid. Maybe it's only the agency that's stupid. Maybe it's the client of the agency. But whatever the case, I don't like it. So what if ithe whole occasion gave me more jobs?? I can't take too much of it because I have 4 essays to hand in before the midsem break. Even so, it's a waste of time, standing by and waiting for them, and we are paid peanuts considering the waiting time spent. Nuff said~ I'm back to write my essay. I'll be back to complain somemore.
The stupid policy of no vehicles into Shangri-la
Reporting 3 hours before the guests arrive
Security Check will take 1 hour to clear
yada yada yada...
ANyway all of the above turned out to be false. It was a TOTAL waste of my very very very precious time.
They created so much inconvenience for everyone because the whole Singapore is so worried that terrorist will attack the meetings. And because I am involved in entertaining the delegates, I find the whole thing very stupid. Maybe it's only the agency that's stupid. Maybe it's the client of the agency. But whatever the case, I don't like it. So what if ithe whole occasion gave me more jobs?? I can't take too much of it because I have 4 essays to hand in before the midsem break. Even so, it's a waste of time, standing by and waiting for them, and we are paid peanuts considering the waiting time spent. Nuff said~ I'm back to write my essay. I'll be back to complain somemore.
The stupid policy of no vehicles into Shangri-la
Reporting 3 hours before the guests arrive
Security Check will take 1 hour to clear
yada yada yada...
ANyway all of the above turned out to be false. It was a TOTAL waste of my very very very precious time.
Friday, September 08, 2006
Friday, September 01, 2006
On Nietzsche and life
"Have you ever said yes to a single joy?
O my friends, then you have said Yes too to all woe.
All things are entangled, ensnared, enamoured;
If you ever wanted one thing twice, if ever you said 'You please me happiness! Abide, moment!' then you wanted all back.
All anew, all eternally, all entangled, ensnared, enamoured"
The universe is not made up of static, separate moments that can be identified and isolated. Rather, it is in constant flux, and everything in every moment is a part of this fundamental process of becoming. Thus, no moment of joy can be singled out from this flux and held on to as if it were separate from the rest. There are parts of life that are painful, that is, and parts that we love, but to want one part to the exclusion of the rest is to want something that is not life.
O my friends, then you have said Yes too to all woe.
All things are entangled, ensnared, enamoured;
If you ever wanted one thing twice, if ever you said 'You please me happiness! Abide, moment!' then you wanted all back.
All anew, all eternally, all entangled, ensnared, enamoured"
The universe is not made up of static, separate moments that can be identified and isolated. Rather, it is in constant flux, and everything in every moment is a part of this fundamental process of becoming. Thus, no moment of joy can be singled out from this flux and held on to as if it were separate from the rest. There are parts of life that are painful, that is, and parts that we love, but to want one part to the exclusion of the rest is to want something that is not life.
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