Femme Fatale

I have this newfound obsession of reading the blogs of hot bloggers. And I mean really gorgeous ones, not those half-fucked wannabes who are trying to imitate those who were shot to fame by blogging. I admit that since Secondary School, I have a habit of sussing out pretty girls on the streets and this habit got worse as I grew up...when a really hot girl walk pass me-I mean the really really hot and good-looking ones,not those look nice from the back only-I'll not be able to resist the urge to turn back and STARE!!! And I totally do not understand when some less than good looking girls can actually comment that such an eye-candy is not good looking. I mean if she's not then who is?? But then again these are usually the people who don't think anyone else except themselves is good-looking. it's like all the pretty girls back in ex-hall had bad reputations, and are widely hated, unless they are extremely chummy with everyone in hall, and/or if they are super enthusiatic about hall stuff.
Anyway, Blog surfing is like one vice that I picked up only recently this sem. In fact late this semester only. So I guess checking out the blogs of babes as a habit naturally fell into my agenda. But now, I've become like one of those disgusting lecherous internet porn ah peks who blog stalk pretty girls. URGHH!! Of late, I'm very caught up with this very popular, very pretty blogger whose name I shall not type in my blog in case people actually typed in her name on search engines and end up in my blog, and then end up very disappointed. But she is like so gorgeous that she don't actually look real. It's like I'll just look at her pictures and hyperventilate...its like her eyes her clothes, her hair, everything is just so perfect. I could spend a whole say just looking at her...okie and this other girl whom she supposedly copied her face from.
But then hor, I also heard that she had plastic surgery. A bit of nip and tuck here and there is fine. But her supposedly old photos clearly shows a totally different face. If it was the same person, it's almost like the old one died and reincarnate into the new one, which was not a bad thing, because now she has the brains, the looks and the boobs. I mean I looked equally KUKU and nerdy before NUS, with bad haircut and eyebrows thick enough to cover my eyes and hand-me-down clothes, but I still have the same face, same features. ANyway, I was totally devastated when I saw her supposedly old pictures that my boyfriend went to google for me. I felt a little deceived...But still, real or not, I still thought she is really gorgeous and unparelelled on earth. But if her face was altered, maybe I also want to know her surgeon. I mean looking at very pretty girls sometimes gives me a little inferiority complex. It's like you always want a bit of someone's legs, someone nose, someone's eyelashes, someone's boobs, and someone's chin. If it can be done on (oops I almost typed her name), then I don't see how it can't be done on me. But i think if i do spend thousands of dollars to get my face done, I'll be really angry/devastated if just 1 person tells me that I'm not pretty, because there'll always be people as abovementioned, who'll go around crushing anyone that looks good. My boyfriend thinks I'm crazy when I told him maybe I want to 'prettify' myself by surgery. hurhurhur...but then I don't have the money, and he'll probably be disgusted with me cos it'll be like kissing michael jackson.
But my point is I love looking at gorgeous girls so much, that it is becoming a major distraction. Like now, I'm supposed to be doing my readings on the Gulf War and preparing for my exam, but I am constantly distracted by the need to check out good looking females, that I think maybe it's lucky that my parents didn't send me to a girls school, or I might just turn towards lesbianism in my teenage years given that I like pretty girls so much. Okie...I must have been too stressed from studying this sem. Okie that was a horrible thought that I'll have to banish, for my boyfriend and for my family and for my studies.

PS: my newest fascination: http://www.egotastic.com/entertainment/celebrities/victorias-secret-lingerie-fashion-show-pictures-001895
Thanks xiaoling -.- .....just as I was about to start studying. in her words "but ohh but they were just too gorgeous that I had to share."